Guest Naturist Blog By: Jessica Marie
First-Time Naturist – If you asked me to join a nudist club last year, I would have already been out the door faster than you would have even started to take your clothes off. Why? Because I have been incredibly self conscious my lifetime. Starting in middle school, I had always tried to fit in.
I joined cheerleading, the town dance group, gymnastics, and the school band. But even after all of these efforts at being part of something, I was always the odd man out. I saw myself as a little too chubby, a little too awkward, a little less flexible, and not as coordinated as everyone else as I approached my teen years.
It was in high school where I eventually found my place, but I was still uncomfortable in my own body, so getting nude was far down on my list of things to do. In reality, it was not on the list at all. After all, I was seventeen, barely five-feet tall, and (gasp) a size A cup.
Even now, after college, not much has changed. Even recently, I was still terrified to take my top off in front of anyone for fear they might see my just existent love handles and my small breasts. And then I met someone whom I ‘ll refer to as Bryan.
First Nudist FKK Party
I first met Bryan through a website, and when we eventually decided to meet in person, it was no secret if you ask me that he was entirely comfortable being bare and not a first time naturist like me. After a month or so of getting to know him, he asked me if I desired to head to a nudist event held by FKK at Juniper Woods. Since it was FKK coordinating the event, I learned that young people would be attending. I automatically said yes to the invitation since I was already comfortable around Bryan. I had absolutely no idea what I was getting myself into.
A week passed and all the while, Bryan and I were hyping up how trendy the occasion would be. And then the day to go came. I packed my stuff, he picked me up from my house, and we made our way to the Catskills. The first half of the car ride was wonderful as we sang and I watched the amazing countryside pass by the window. And then we passed a sign for the Rocking Horse Ranch, where we had school camping trips when I was younger.
I tried envisioning a camping trip with all the children I went to school with becoming naked, and all I could think of was how judgmental they’d be. I freaked out. I began hyperventilating. I couldn’t believe I was actually going to get nude in front of people I didn’t know. How many would be there? Should I simply wear http://nudism-life.com ? What about my small boobs? I should definitely wear my hair down in front of them. Oh, and Iwill have to suck in my own belly. Bryan talked me out of one anxiety attack after another. I soon learned I had nothing to concern yourself with.
We finally pulled up to some large gate with a sign in front with buzzer. Bryan talked into a box saying we were here for http://x-public.com . I sat there unable to talk or move. The gates began to go after a while, and soon before our automobile was a middle-aged woman, entirely nude, sitting in a golf-cart. I thought it was funny. I hadn’t seen too many naked people out in the open like that before.
After we finished filling out some paper work, we drove down to our camping area where Bryan sat up the tent. I attempted helping just as much as I could but my mind began racing again as the only thing left for me to do was get naked. And there was no turning back. After all, if I only sat at our campsite fully clothed, I ‘d, once again, be the odd-individual out.
It was then I realized when I did not strip down within the next five minutes, I was likely not going to do it at all. So, when the tent was finally up, I went inside and got end-freakin’-nude. It was a strange feeling being fully bare outside. It was not really so awful, I believed. But the real test of my new found courage would be facing all of these total strangers.
When Bryan was done getting nude, we walked down to your tented place where the nudies were body painting. Bryan introduced me to a few of them and told them I was a first time nudist and that it was my first time at a FKK (or any) nudist event. And before I knew it, I had a group of individuals coming over to meet me.
Everyone was extremely friendly, and although I was still nervous, I started to feel more comfortable. They weren’t like the people who I went to school with who I understood would have been eyeing me up and down. Instead, my new friends were giving me comforting grins and waves. I looked around the small group of people; they were all different sizes and shapes and they were so comfortable within their own skin. I knew at that instant the feelings they had were what I wanted.
It was in that instant when I finally allow all of my guards down and declared to the world, I am Jessica!
The weekend was likely one of many greatest of my life. I got body painted, went to a bonfire, danced, went swimming and hot-tubbing. But most importantly, I was beginning to see past my insecurities and in my own skin I felt, to be honest and cliched, liberated and so very free. I was slowly but surely learning to love everything about myself, even my little breasts and love handles.
In doing this, in learning to accept who I ‘m on the outside, I can fully concentrate and adore my entire individual, both inside and out. And this change happened with the help of everyone there. I know if everyone wasn’t so amazingly pleasant and welcoming and utterly and completely non-critical, I would have never kept my clothing away, and I wouldn’t have believed everything that I ‘d experienced.
My first nudie experience was only a couple months ago, and since then, I have been going to every nudist event that I can. Through Nudist Portal, I have made incredible friends, and the old insecure Jessica is slowly becoming only a shadow of my past.
This post about being First Time Naturist At The FKK Gathering was published by – Young Naturists and Young Nudists America FKK
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Guest Naturist Blog By: Jessica Marie